Om jag fick förändra en sak skulle det vara obehaget om kvällarna. Slippa när mörkret faller över allt man inte hunnit med. Jag sitter i en kyrkbänk och känner mig lite stel. Det känns pinsamt att röra sig. Det är morgon och himlen ovanför kyrkan var vit och halsen svart av cigaretter och jag inser att jag typ hatar mig själv. Inte pga allt inatt. Jag hatade mig själv innan jag gick ut.

Men det är roligt att kolla på Stella, hon knäpper händerna tillsammans med resten av församlingen och ser ut att vara kontakt med något slags arkaiskt lidande. Mitt lidande är samtida, mjukt, fuktigt och torkar ut till ikväll.

Jag gör en lista på fler saker att förändra. Kom ihåg: Man behöver inte göra så mycket. Magandas. Lyssna på folk. Det finns inte en plats som inte ser dig. Du måste förändra ditt liv.

Jesus i trä bakom altaret ser sjuk ut. Han är grå. Är tanken att han ska se så eländig ut som möjligt. Han ska dela lidandet med oss säger prästen. Han ska dela den hemska pendelrörelsen, ögonblicket när man skrattar, skriker, heilar och plötsligt inser att man vill hem.

Prästen är snygg. Han ser ut “som oss”. Han läser med en mörk röst och hans hår är som Kurt Cobain. Det är inte det att han är att han är lång och smal … utan att han försöker skämta med kroppen. Han är som jag. Han har aldrig heller förändrat allt. Jag ger honom mitt nummer. Väntar hela dagen. Det är som ett ljus flämtar och brinner ut, ett stånd kommer av sig och kryper ihop. När han skriver har det blivit kväll.

Text: Frutta
Bild: Zola Gorgon

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  1. suzanamonika says:

    14h sedan

    ✝️ To pray for the dead is an act of charity and of piety.

    November 2nd, Feast of All Souls

    The Church teaches us that the souls of the just who have left this world soiled with the stain of venial sin remain for a time in a place of expiation, where they suffer such punishment as may be due to their offences. It is a matter of faith that these suffering souls are relieved by the intercession of the Saints in heaven and by the prayers of the faithful upon earth.

    To pray for the dead is, then, both an act of charity and of piety. We read in Holy Scripture: ”It is a holy and wholesome thought to pray for the dead, that they may be loosed from sins.” And when Our Lord inspired St. Odilo, Abbot of Cluny, towards the close of the tenth century, to establish in his Order a general commemoration of all the faithful departed, it was soon adopted by the whole Western Church, and has been continued unceasingly to our day.

    Let us, then, ever bear in mind the dead and offer up our prayers for them. By showing this mercy to the suffering souls in purgatory, we shall be particularly entitled to be treated with mercy at our departure from this world, and to share more abundantly in the general suffrages of the Church, continually offered for all who have slept in Christ.

    Text from the book: Little Pictorial Lives of the Saints, Compiled from Butler’s Lives and Other Approved Sources. 1925.

    ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜ ⚜

    Prayer from today’s Holy Mass.
    “O God, the Creator and Redeemer of all the faithful, grant to the souls of Thy servants departed the remission of all their sins, that, through our devout prayers, they may obtain the pardon, which they have always desired. Who livest, and reignest world without end. Amen.”

    ⚜ From the Saint Joseph’s Daily Missal, 1953.
    Kada idete na groblje ovih dana, ponesite svijeću viška ili koji cvijetak više pa da po nadahnuću upalite/stavite na grob nekog neznanog pokojnika na kojem ništa ne gori, na kojem ništa ne cvjeta.
    I ne zaboravite se pomoliti za dušu te osobe na koju možda nitko ne misli, nitko za nju ne moli. Učinit ćete tako veliko djelo ljubavi!
    (fra Siniša Pucić)

    When his excellency, Bishop Ott, spoke to Saint Mother Teresa of Calcutta, he asked her “how she got so many women to join her religious order”. She explained: “We were just like other religious congregations with few vocations. Then at our chapter in the 1970s we made a decision to have a holy hour in all our convents each evening. Many blessings resulted from this Holy Hour the Bishop witnessed, for Saint Mother Teresa continued, “We began to see more clearly our mission to serve the poor in Christ’s name. We began to live a more fruitful family life among ourselves. We experienced double the number of vocations in our congregation. And we grew personally in our intimacy with the Lord present in the Eucharist.” The Bishop is “confident” that this will occur in his diocese too.
    – “Bishop’s Notebook”, Stanley Joseph Ott, Bishop of Baton Rouge, “The Catholic Commentator”, August 5, 1992, p. 4

    November 1 – Feast of All Saints
    Today the Church celebrates all the saints: canonized or beatified, and the multitude of those who are in heaven enjoying the beatific vision that are only known to God.
    During the year the Church celebrates one by one the feasts of the saints. Today she joins them all in one festival. In addition to those whose names she knows, she recalls in a magnificent vision all the others “of all nations and tribes standing before the throne and in sight of the Lamb, clothed with white robes, and palms in their hands, proclaiming Him who redeemed them in His Blood.”
    The feast of All Saints should inspire us with tremendous hope. Among the saints in heaven are some whom we have known. All lived on earth lives like our own. They were baptized, marked with the sign of faith, they were faithful to Christ’s teaching and they have gone before us to the heavenly home whence they call on us to follow them. The Gospel of the Beatitudes, read today, while it shows their happiness, shows, too, the road that they followed; there is no other that will lead us whither they have gone.
    During the early centuries the Saints venerated by the Church were all martyrs. “The Commemoration of All Saints” was first celebrated in the East. in the West, the honoring of all Christian martyrs of the Faith was originally celebrated on May 13, the date established by the fourth century. Pope Boniface IV in 615 established it as commemorating the dedication of the Pantheon, an ancient Roman temple, into a Christian church dedicated to the Blessed Virgin Mary and all the martyrs. The Roman Martyrology mentions that this date is a claim of fame for Gregory IV (827-844) and that he extended this observance to the whole of Christendom; it seems certain, however, that Gregory III (731-741) preceded him in this. At Rome, on May 13, there was the annual commemoration of the consecration of the basilica of St. Maria ad Martyres (or St. Mary and All Martyrs), the “Feast of All Martyrs”. This was the former Pantheon, the temple of Agrippa, dedicated to all the gods of paganism, to which Boniface IV had translated many relics from the catacombs. By 741, the feast included not only martyrs, but all the saints in heaven as well, with the title changing to “Feast of All Saints” by 840. In 844, Pope Gregory IV transferred the feast to November 1st, timing it around the harvests to be able to provide food for the pilgrims. Pope Sixtus IV in 1484 established November 1 as a holyday of obligation and gave it both a vigil (known today as “All Hallows’ Eve” or “Hallowe’en”) and an eight-day period or octave to celebrate the feast.
    The Solemnity of All Saints is a solemnity, a holyday of obligation and the day that the Church honors all of God’s saints, even those who have not been canonized by the Church. It is a family day of celebration—we celebrate the memory of those family members (sharing with us in the Mystical Body, the doctrine of the Communion of Saints) now sharing eternal happiness in the presence of God. We rejoice that they have reached their eternal goal and ask their prayers on our behalf so that we, too, may join them in heaven and praise God through all eternity.
    Solemnities are counted as the principal days in the calendar and their observance begins with evening prayer of the preceding day. Some also have their own vigil Mass for use when Mass is celebrated in the evening of the preceding day.
    In the Divine Office, or Liturgy of the Hours, solemnities and Sundays are begin with Evening Prayer I (the evening before) and Evening Prayer II (the evening of the solemnity).
    On All Souls Day and November 1-8 one can gain plenary indulgences for the Poor Souls.
    We all have this “universal call to holiness.” What must we to do in order to join the company of the saints in heaven? We “must follow in His footsteps and conform [our]selves to His image seeking the will of the Father in all things. [We] must devote [our]selves with all [our] being to the glory of God and the service of [our] neighbor. In this way, the holiness of the People of God will grow into an abundant harvest of good, as is admirably shown by the life of so many saints in Church history” (Lumen Gentium, 40).

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